When I read through the Gospels, something always grabs my attention: Jesus prayed a lot that the people would have “eyes to see and ears to hear”. This is pretty profound to me. Jesus spoke in parables, little mysterious stories that had greater meaning than the surface story told. And each time he spoke a parable, he challenged his hearers at the end of it to have eyes to see and ears to hear. The more I think of that request, the deeper it challenges me to wake up and look around at all that is happening not just to me or my family, but what is happening in each moment. To “stop and consider the lilies of the field”.

Am I seeing?

Am I hearing?

I’m reading an amazing and life changing book right now by Ann Voskamp entitled, “1000 Gifts”.  Her thoughts in the book on gratefulness, a heart that is thankful to God for all things (yes…even things that are gut-wrenchingly painful) coupled with this prayer of Jesus is doing a work in my heart. It’s a wrestling that is causing me to limp a bit, challenging me to hang on for the blessing. Not to let go, not until the blessing. I told my prayer friends it feels like scraping the edges of a jar sometimes. There are those bits that just cling to the glass. The only way to loosen them is to scrape.

This song is part of it too.

Brandon Heath

“Wait and See”

I was born in Tennessee, late July humidity,
Doctors said I was lucky to be alive
I’ve been troubled since the day that I got here,
Troubled to the day I disappear
That’ll be the day that I finally get it right

There is hope, for me yet,
Because God won’t forget,
All the plans HE’s made for me
I have to wait and see,
HE’s not finished with me yet,
HE’s not finished with me yet

I never really was that good in school;
Talked too much, broke the rules
My teachers thought I was a hopeless fool, all right.
I don’t know how but I made it through,
It’s one of those things you gotta do
I always had a knack for telling the truth.

There is hope, for me yet,
Because God won’t forget,
All the plans HE’s made for me
I have to wait and see,
HE’s not finished with me yet,
HE’s not finished with me yet

Still wonderin’ why I’m here.
Still wrestling with my fear
But oh… HE’s up to something,
And the farther out I go,
I’ve seen enough to know
That I’m not here for nothin’…
He’s up to somethin’.

So now’s my time to be a man,
Follow my heart as far as I can
No tellin’ where I’m ending up tonight
I never slow down (or so it seems),
But singing my heart is one of my dreams
All I gotta do is hold on tight.

There is hope, for me yet,
Because God won’t forget,
All the plans HE’s made for me
I have to wait and see,
HE’s not finished with me yet,
HE’s not finished with me yet
HE’s not finished with me yet,
HE’s not finished with me yet

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3 thoughts on “Wait and See

  1. I love that song. Beautiful post. Your description of the “wrestling” reminded me of the story of Jacob wrestling with God and not letting go until God blessed him. Quiet, strong, unyielding tenacity.

    PS: I recently received a copy of Voskamp’s book, but I haven’t read it yet. So many women have recommended it to me! Sounds like you’d be in that camp, too.

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