I’ve always loved my blog name. If you’ve never read the “why” under the “About” page, it is because I really feel like life is made up of those sorts of moments. There are peaceful, beautiful, tranquil and happy times that are like quiet gardens and then there are times where we are riding out the storm.
Our life right now feels like a really bad storm at sea. 20 foot swells, pelting rain, boat rockin’ like no tomorrow, stuff flying everywhere…it’s nuts. And the horizon isn’t exactly clearing.
I don’t want to get into it too much here, but the last 2 years of our life have been stressful to say the least. In fact I was reminded of a list I saw once about the Top 10 Causes of Stress and when I looked it up, we’ve hit at least 1/2 of those in just the last 2 years of our life. Constantly.
Whenever the storm rages particularly heavy, I find it really hard to blog. Hence today’s post. I don’t believe in airing dirty laundry online (because frankly, most people want to read happy and funny stuff, not sad and droopy stuff) and honestly, I retreat inward when things are rough. So the last thing I want to do is pretend that things are hunky-dory and write some fake blog post about my life that makes things look like things are great. Things aren’t great. And I do not have the personality that can hide that. My heart is exposed and on my sleeve…please don’t bump into me right now…
I think what I’m trying to say is friends, keep on praying for us. God has answered a huge prayer in our life by giving Jeremy a new job. We are so excited for the future. But the present isn’t exactly feeling like a gift these days.
We are holding onto Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, every single second of every day. Because we passed daily a while ago. I sing “I need thee every hour” with great passion these days. I feel the Lord is close. I know He hears us and I know He is not unaware of where we are at or how our hearts are feeling. He is a sun and shield about me, He is my rock, my firm foundation, my Redeemer and my rescuer. He will always be.
So if you see me and I’m quiet, if the blog seems weird, say a little prayer for us. Give me a hug and sing those psalms, hymns and spiritual songs to me. He is the lifter of my head and we’re just going to ride this storm out with Him because we know that He is the One who will calm the seas and quite the winds.
I’m ready to look back and laugh at the hard times that I am confidant will one day be behind us.