Quiet Gardens, Raging Seas Part Deux
A String of Nevil Family MomentsArchive for Inspiring
Grumpy…
Tonight, my friend Tara came over for dinner with her boys. It was originally intended to be a celebration dinner; we both had our wedding anniversaries in the past 2 weeks. But we got busy with kids and dinner and totally forgot that was why we arranged it in the first place! Regardless, it was fun and the boys had a blast together (with only one child injured this evening!).
I was telling Tara that I have been pretty grumpy lately. I think it is a host of things going on; Cooper will be starting school soon…assuming I actually enroll him sometime soon, and my whole life will change as a result. I’m throwing my own hissy fit about that today. My washer machine is broken-again-and this was not part of the plan. I intended to save up and buy myself a new set for Christmas. Money is a little tight right now with extra expenses from Jeremy being gone/getting stuff as he was preparing to leave, etc. and deployment pay takes a while to kick in. Plus, I am just feeling blah in general knowing I won’t get to talk to Jeremy for a month or more from now forward. I’m just feeling a bit scared and unsure of what I should do in some of those aforementioned situations.
This could just be the dolldrums of deployment…I dunno. Tara and Crystal both reminded me that I was grumpy when Jeremy first left a couple weeks ago too. It was actually a good reminder to me because I’ve been surprised at how I’ve dealt with deployment thus far from an emotional standpoint. I thought I’d be the crying type…but apparently I’m the grumpy type. My Mom probably could’ve told me that….
I was even skeptical about writing this post tonight. But I decided to go ahead with it because of a verse I came across this evening when I was putting Chase to bed. It’s from Isaiah 41:10 “Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you. Surely I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
Thank you Lord that even in my grumpy state, you promise to help me. I’m sorry for my snotty attitude, thinking you do not care or see. Please help me and humble me as I learn more and more the value in accepting the help that is offered to me by my friends and my family. Please teach me how to be willing to ask for help when I need it. Please help me not to feel fear or embarrassment when I am in need. I am not perfect, I do not have it all together. Thank you for the way Your people rise up when their brothers and sisters are in need. Please help me to get over myself!
Dream a Little Dream with Me
Today, I was flipping through the latest edition of Real Simple Magazine, and I got to one of those annoying sections of the magazine where there is a card or ad of some sort. You know the kind; the one that makes the pages in the magazine NOT fall right so you have to crease the magazine, and push it down. (I was nursing while reading this magazine so it was a bit of a bother.)
After fumbling with the magazine, I realized it was a paint ad from Glidden..I was immediately sucked in! The colors advertised were oh so pretty together and they sounded so nice…Crisp Ginger Ale, Fresh Hyacinth and Black Tulip - I was hooked. I tore it out (or tried as best I could with one hand) immediately to put in my special folder.
See, I have this little folder all nicely tucked away in my filing cabinet. It’s something very near and dear to my heart; I call it “My Dream House” folder. It has all sorts of stuff crammed into it: paint samples, fabric samples, carpet samples, and lots and lots of pictures from magazines. Pictures of dishes, of furniture, of yards and art; you get the picture. I think that folder is my happy place!
I am a bit of a dreamer. And for some reason, having a house and decorating it plays a big part of my dreams. I think a lot of women have specific dreams growing up; dreams of their wedding day, of being a mom or a teacher. I have a lot of friends who say things like “I just always knew I wanted to be a mom”. For me, I just always knew I wanted to have a house to decorate all myself!
Being in a house we borrow from the Army, I don’t have the opportunity to play like I would like to with where we are now. But tearing out magazine pages is really fun for me. Every time I need a little pick me up, I can just go to my folder, open it up and relive all the things I just love dreaming about doing to my own house one day!
In fact, I was thinking today (when I was dreaming of Crisp Giner Ale, Fresh Hyacinth and Black Tulip) that maybe I should scrap book my folder! It’s getting pretty big and I think it would be really fun to work on. Maybe that’ll be another one of my deployment projects. Oh…I haven’t told you guys about that yet huh? That’ll have to be the next post.
If you ever find yourself sans-inspiration, I highly recommend making a dream folder of your own. It’s immense fun!
